《意隐故事--三柱香》夏意隐

74、斗兽围困 Jayde

　　Jayden和Lena约好要来东方余悠这里探望她。

　　她已经逐渐适应了这种拿她作为借口来去供他们周旋的现状，也接受了她这个地方（孙景澄的故居）俨然已经成了一个最佳斗兽场。

　　Lena：“How are you?（你怎么样？）”

　　Jayden：“Good. Fine.（很好。不错。）”

　　Lena：“Are you sure?（你确定吗？）”

　　Jayden：“What do you expect to hear? That I feel terrible for losing in the first round again? Is that what you want? Fine! I feel like shit, and I just can't accept that I lost AGAIN! There you go, I lost. Happy now? Can I PLEASE, PLEASE just have a break now?!（你想要听什么？我感觉很糟糕因为我一轮游了？这是你想要的吗？好，我感觉糟透了，我就是不能接受我又输了！来，我又输了，开心吗？我现在能稍微休息一下吗？）”

　　Lena：“No that's not what I want to hear! I just want you to be honest with yourself. You are now in denial!（不，那不是我想要听到的！我只想要你诚实地面对自己。你想在还处于否认当中。）”

　　Jayden：“Yeah, I'm in denial because I didn't say what you think I should say. That makes me in denial. You shrink just f*cking know everything!（对，我处于否认之中因为我没有说你认为我应该说的话，这让我处于否认之中。你们心理医生真他妈的无所不知！）”

　　Lena：“I’m just trying to help!（我只是想帮你！）”

　　Jayden：“How? For what? You just want me to win!（怎么帮？为了什么？你只想要我赢！）”

　　Lena：“Only because I know you want to!（只因为我知道你想要！) ”

　　Jayden：“Yeah, of course I want to win, but I'm also OK with losing. It's not that big of deal!（当然我想赢，但是输我也可以接受。这不是多大的事儿！）”

　　Lena：“Only if you really feel that way, but do you? You've been showing frustration on court and don't deny it cuz I see it. It's already turning into aggression-（如果你真这么觉得的话，但是真的吗？你在赛场上很烦躁，别否定我亲眼看到的，它已经导致了暴力-）”

　　Jayden：“Oh yeah, you see it.（哦没错，你看到了。）”

　　Lena：“We all do! You yelled at the crowd, you smashed your racket last week-（我们都看到了！你冲观众大喊大叫，你上周还摔了球拍-）”

　　Jayden：“OK, whatever! I’m aggressive, I’m out of control, and I'm most definitely so damn tired of this conversation. It's a broken record playing over and over again. This is going nowhere!（行！随你怎么说！我攻击性强，我失控，而且我他妈绝对、彻底烦透了这场对话！同样的对话已经太多遍了。不会有什么结果的！）”

　　Jayden转过身要走。

　　Lena：“Where are you going?（你要去哪儿？）”

　　Jayden复又转过身来面对她。

　　Jayden：“I‘m leaving. You are on my ass for everything, for girls, for games. I’m done.（离开。你事儿太多了，关于女孩、关于比赛，我受够了。）”

　　Lena：“What do you mean you are done?（什么叫你受够了？）”

　　Jayden：“It means what it means.（就是我受够了的意思。）”

　　说完，Jayden就离开了。