《Draco's letter to Harry》抹不掉的轻狂

1、Draco's letter To H·

　　To H·Potter,

　　I hope this letter does not trouble you. I know we have never truly been friends—in fact, one might even say we were enemies. But time has passed, and many things have changed. Yet, some feelings remain, impossible to erase.

　　I never imagined I would write this letter, especially now that we have both built our own lives and found peace. However, fate has a cruel sense of humor. At thirty-five, I have come to realize that the curse placed upon me by Voldemort in my youth is slowly claiming my life. Perhaps soon, I will leave this world. And in these moments, I find that I can no longer suppress the emotions I have buried deep within my heart.

　　Harry, I must admit that from the very first moment we met at Hogwarts, you left an indelible mark on me. Back then, I was arrogant, selfish, and foolishly tried to get your attention through hostility. I never truly understood why I cared so much about you until years later, when I finally realized it was something I could not control—love.

　　Yes, I love you. Though I know this feeling could never be reciprocated, though I know we have long since walked different paths, I cannot deny its existence. You are the most extraordinary presence in my life, a light I could never reach. Even in my darkest moments, your shadow has always lingered in my heart.

　　I never expected you to return these feelings, nor did I ever intend to disrupt your life. I write this letter only to be honest with myself and with you before I leave this world. I do not wish to depart with regrets, nor do I want this emotion to remain buried forever.

　　You are a part of my life, Harry, even though we were never truly close. I wish you happiness, and I hope your life with Ginny is filled with love and laughter. As for me, I will face the end with peace, carrying my blessings for you.

　　Forgive me for being selfish. This letter may trouble you, but I have no other choice. This is my final farewell, and my final honesty.

　　May you be well.Wishing you all the best and may good fortune accompany you always.

　　——Draco Malfoy

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　　下面是翻译：
致H·波特，
希望这封信不会让你感到困扰。我知道，我们之间从未有过真正的友谊，甚至可以说是敌对的。但时光流转，许多事情早已改变，而有些情感却始终无法抹去。
我从未想过自己会写下这封信，尤其是在我们已经各自成家、生活看似平静的今天。然而，命运总是喜欢捉弄人。三十五岁的我，终于意识到自己年少时被伏地魔种下的诅咒正在侵蚀我的生命。或许不久之后，我将离开这个世界。而在这样的时刻，我发现自己无法再压抑那些深埋心底的情感。
哈利，我必须承认，从我们第一次在霍格沃茨相遇的那一刻起，你就在我心中留下了无法磨灭的印记。那时的我，傲慢、自私，甚至愚蠢地试图用敌对的方式引起你的注意。我从未真正理解过自己为何如此在意你，直到多年后，我才明白，那是一种我无法控制的情感——爱。
是的，我爱你。尽管我知道这份感情从未有过回应的可能，尽管我知道我们早已走上了不同的道路，但我依然无法否认它的存在。你是我生命中最特别的存在，是我无法触及的光明。即使在我最黑暗的时刻，你的影子也始终萦绕在我的心头。
我从未奢望过你会回应这份感情，也从未想过要打扰你现在的生活。写下这封信，只是为了让自己在离开这个世界之前，能够坦诚地面对自己，面对你。我不希望带着遗憾离开，也不希望这份情感永远被埋藏在心底。
你是我生命中的一部分，哈利，尽管我们从未真正靠近过。我希望你能幸福，希望你和金妮的生活充满爱与欢笑。而我，也将带着对你的祝福，平静地面对即将到来的终点。
请原谅我的自私，写下这封信或许会让你感到困扰，但我别无选择。这是我最后的告别，也是我最后的坦诚。
愿你一切安好，顺遂时祺。
——德拉科·马尔福