《渴望》任有漪

2、昨日重现

　　一语高兴的跑出家门，对周围的一切都是那么的好奇，但是渐渐的她发现越来越不对劲，因为她所看到的并不是繁华的宫殿，也没有俊男美女，只有泥泞的小路和大片的农田。在这一瞬间，她觉得自己像祥林嫂，那么的弱小可怜又无助。她仿佛看到了自己在这片土地上生活的命运，她将会在封建制度的压迫中度过他的一生。这里没有春光融融的风景，有的只是无尽的劳作。当一语还在感叹自己的命运时，那位妇人拿着一筐秧苗对一语喊道：“还不赶紧去插秧，等时间过了看你将来吃什么。”明明妇人就站在一语的面前，但妇人的声音却可以覆盖十里八乡。一语认命的接过箩筐走到水田，她真希望自己是在做梦，但一切却又是这么的真实，真实到她觉得自己就是活在这个世界，这个妇人就是他的母亲，与妇人斗嘴的男人就是她的父亲。而且她应该还有个哥哥，常常生病却怎么也治不好。她感觉到自己在这片田里生活了十八个年头，每天就是劳作，吃不饱穿不到。偶尔有机会去学堂，但在学堂里也是被同学欺负，被先生辱骂，窝囊极了。
　　在这时有一种想法从一语的心底里升起，他要打破这种命运的束缚，他不是这个时代的人，为什么要按照这个时代的人的活法来生活。如果说既来之则安之，那么我就应该成为奴隶向狗一样对封建集团的顶级人物卑躬屈膝吗，不甘心。一语默默的把这个想法存在心里，她想她会有机会证明自己的，她想她会回到自己的时代的，只是现在还不是时候。她不能倒在这里，她要反抗！当一语把想法拉回来面对现实的时候，她抬起左脚进入水塘，接着放入右脚，走了两步之后，发现不对劲。她不会插秧！一语忧心忡忡的回头，看着那位现在是她母亲的人，支支吾吾的说道：“我不会。”那妇人怒吼：“白养你这么久了，弯腰都不会吗。那一戳弯腰插田里，要成一条直线，要是插歪了有你好看。”一语心虚的拿起秧苗，弯腰低头，摸索着适合的泥土。摸着摸着她的手指摸到的滑滑的东西，像果冻一样有弹性，还挺舒服的，她想捞出来看看是什么，结果那东西怎么也不动，她用力的往外拉，但是那东西吸附力太强，拉不动小腿的皮肤还有点疼。一语不自觉的把小腿抬起来看，发现那像果冻一样的东西正吸附在她的小腿上，还不停的蠕动。一语感到一阵恶心忍不住呕出来。
　　对于一个从小生活在城市里的女孩哪里见过这种东西，她虽然不被父母所疼爱，也不受欢迎。但她也没有坚强到什么都不怕的地步。她想哭，但是她怕被那妇人教训。一语不知所措的站在那里，妇人察觉到一语的动静，大声的说道：“水蛭而已怕什么，等会插完秧上来撒把盐就好了，赶紧的别拖时间。”一语不知道为什么比起水蛭她更害怕这位妇人，也许是十几年来的压迫，也许是对陌生环境的恐惧，她继续弯腰干活。
　　一语不知道这种生活还要持续多久，也不知道自己能不能有所改变，但是妇人的带给她的恐惧是现实而直接的，她也说不清是为什么，明明才刚刚来到这个时代，但是骨子里似乎已经习惯了这种压迫。理智与情感的冲突，使得她在理智上寻求突破，却在情感上害怕一切。一语是否还有未来可言？

　　YY ran out of the house happily, and was so curious about everything around, but gradually she found that it was getting more and more wrong, because what she saw was not a bustling palace, there were no handsome men and women, only muddy paths and Large tracts of farmland. At this moment, she felt like Xiang Linyu, so weak and helpless. She seemed to see her fate living in this land, and she would spend his whole life in the oppression of the feudal system. There is no spring scenery here, some just endless labor. While she was lamenting her destiny, the woman shouted to the phrase with a basket of seedlings: "Not yet hurry to transplant rice, wait for time to see what you will eat in the future." The Mingming woman stood In front of a word, but the woman's voice can cover Shilibaxiang. She took the basket and walked to the paddy field. She really wished that she was dreaming, but everything was so real, so real that she felt that she was living in this world. This woman was his mother, and the woman The bickering man is her father. And she should have an older brother, who often gets sick but can't cure it anymore. She felt that she had lived in this field for eighteen years. She worked hard every day and could not eat or wear enough. Occasionally I have the opportunity to go to the school, but in the school, I was bullied by my classmates and abused by my husband.
　　At this time there was an idea rising from the bottom of Yi Yu's heart. He wanted to break the fetters of this fate. She is not a man of this age, why should she live according to the living methods of this age. If the past is safe, should I be a slave to the dog's top feudal group like a dog, and be unwilling I kept this idea in my heart silently. She thought she would have a chance to prove herself. She thought she would return to her time, but it is not the time yet. She can't fall here, she wants to resist! When the word pulled the idea back to face the reality, she lifted her left foot into the pond, then put her right foot. After two steps, she found something wrong. She will not plant rice! Looking back anxiously, looking at the man who is now her mother, he said in a stubborn voice: "I won't." The woman yelled, "I haven't bent over for so long, won't I Bend and insert into the field with a poke, you must make a straight line. If you insert it crooked, you will look good. "Picked up the seedling with a guilty conscience, bent down, and fumbled for suitable soil. She touched the slippery thing she felt with her fingers, which was as elastic as jelly and quite comfortable. She wanted to fish it out to see what it was. As a result, the thing didn't move. She pulled it out forcefully. But that thing is too strong, and the skin on the lower leg still hurts. Raising her calf unconsciously, she noticed that the jelly-like thing was attracting to her calf, and she kept squirming. I felt nauseous for a while and couldn't help vomiting.
　　For a girl who has lived in the city since she was a child, she has never seen this kind of thing. Although she is not loved by her parents, she is not welcome. But she was not strong enough to fear nothing. She wanted to cry, but she was afraid of being taught by that woman. Standing there at a loss, the woman noticed the movement of the word, and said aloud, "The leeches are scared of nothing. Just wait for the seedlings to come up and sprinkle the salt. Don't hurry." She didn't know why she was more afraid of the woman than Lishui. Maybe it was the oppression of more than a decade. Maybe it was the fear of strange environments.
　　I didn't know how long this life would last, or whether I could change, but the fear the woman brought to her was real and direct, and she couldn't tell why, she had just arrived In this era, it seems that the oppression is used to it. The conflict between reason and emotion makes her seek a breakthrough in reason, but she is afraid of everything emotionally. Is there a word for the future